IGTV = LIFE.
Welp. I did it. I made my first IGTV video.
It took about 7hrs, (1hr of planning and taking video, 6hrs of editing...ugh) and created way more stress than I care to admit, but I made it happen! Was it worth it? I'm not sure, haha. And now that I'm thinking about it, this little 9min video is kind of a reflection of my life right now.
I think that pretty much all my life, I've had things come easily to me. I've got a little bit (ok a lot) of white privilege on my side. I went to an expensive private school, excelled in academics, sports, and making friends. Of course I wasn't the best in all those areas, but I never really had to work hard to make things happen.
I only applied to one college, got in, received just enough financial aid, graduated in three years, and got married to a guy right out of college. I started working for a non-profit, which became a fantastic community to surround myself with. Up until last year, when I moved across the country with my military husband, I feel as if life was handed to me wrapped in a pretty little bow.
I knew that moving would be difficult, and believed that once I was rooted in a community, things would be just like they were before we moved. Now, a year and a half after moving and I'm still asking myself, "WHY IS LIFE SO HARD??" Don't get me wrong, I have found a fantastic community, close friends, and feel as if I've really found my niche here.
However, just like my silly 9min IGTV video, no matter how great it all seems on the surface, the 7hrs and a whole lot of stress remains to be seen by the outside world. I took a ridiculous amount of time figuring out how to edit my videos, felt like I rambled during the whole thing, almost finished but then decided to edit another 2min out, and then had to watch tutorials on how to export it, HAHA.
My day-job has also been hard work, my home life has definitely had better times, and I find myself on the struggle bus pretty often these days. (Also, does anyone else's purse strap just happen to get stuck on EVERYTHING in the car the day you're running late to work??) When it rains, it pours, I guess. LOL.
I'm just wanting to speak a little encouragement to all you wonderful people out there who are struggling, hustling, and feeling like you're getting no where, I'm right there with you. Nobody's perfect, and everyone is fighting their own personal battle.
And if you're in a season of life right now where you're on cloud-9, eff you. Haha, JK. Share a little of your sunshine with the rest of us, be kind to us struggle-bus-ers, and go check out my IGTV video! ;)
XO - Hannah @ Give Ten.